Work in Progress

I feel better today. I think I might take that walk. I can't worry about yesterday or tomorrow. I can only think of today! Today, I'll do it!

One more day, One more failure

So, I got sick yesterday. It might have something to do with my second child being shipped to Iraq. Regardless, I then went to a familydinner and and had the appetizer platter at a Mexican restuarant which consisted of chicken flautas, nachos, quesidillas and fried chicken filled jalapeno peppers. I don't think there is a healthy Mexican dinner. Maybe today I'll get on the exercise bike or gthe treadmill. Who knows, who cares!

Help me, I'm Dying!!

Here are all the things wrong with me: I have diabetes, high blood pressure, thyroid, hardening of arteries in my legs, high cholesterol and to top it off I need a kidney transplant. My kidney functions at 20%. But the biggest topper is that I am obese and a lot of problems wouldn't be problems if I just lost the weight. Which I can't!! I've tried and I can't! My one joy of exercise was walking but now that I have hardening of the arteries in my legs it hurts just to walk so while I use to maintain my weight or lose some weight, I can't do that anymore and my weight is slowly creeping up even higher. I have to try to lose the weight if I want my kidney transplant. So, for the hundredth time in my lifetime here I go again. Please pray for me.